Hurricane

When one look pulls
my heart up
through my throat
opening that deepest
well inside of me
I don't want to be
vulnerable
not in front of you
not when you call me a
force to be reckoned with.
Hurricanes are not weak.

On Depression

Black and thick like pitch
Oozing pouring into me
Restless nagging itch
Darkness filling all I see
Permeate my soul
Apathy will follow pain
I am never whole
Bring the hammer down again
Break away my shield
Sweep away my great facade
Porcelain always yields
(When) Iron Darkness rules as god. 


(Written a few months ago - I could have sworn I had posted this already but I guess I didn't. I like the rhythm of the lines though.)

Mania

This heaviness
Pounding in my blood like
drums of war
beating down into my
heart
Pressure building
higher
higher
sorrow squalling in my
chest
Until it's loosed I cannot
stop
It's screaming through my
blood and bones
Slamming out against my
skull
My body's shaking in
God knows what?
Won't dying be a rush?

Bring It On

I am a force to be reckoned with
There's a fire in my belly that
turns their knees to jelly
because, oh hell, she's set on her
course with no remorse.
Don't stand in my way, I've got to move fast
dropping my past and forging into a new day.
Don't hold me with your labels
Words strung like cables
trying to corner me, don't you dare order me
There's a disorder in my soul
a chaos I revel in
but I'll meet you on a level-playing field
Just give me a fighting chance
and not just a passing once-over glance
and you'll see I'm not a liar
I'm alight with desire
and ready to fill this whole fucking world with my fire.

Save My Soul

My religion is a ritual
Just you and I in
Cassock and habit
Sanctified and sacred in the eyes of God.
The words of your prayer resonate in my mouth
My rosary slipping through your nimble fingers
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned
It has been three days since my last confession.
Hail Mary Mother of God, God
god - Jesus,
Fuck!
Oh God!
My soul has been cleansed in the eyes of the Father.
Amen.