Mania

This heaviness
Pounding in my blood like
drums of war
beating down into my
heart
Pressure building
higher
higher
sorrow squalling in my
chest
Until it's loosed I cannot
stop
It's screaming through my
blood and bones
Slamming out against my
skull
My body's shaking in
God knows what?
Won't dying be a rush?

Bring It On

I am a force to be reckoned with
There's a fire in my belly that
turns their knees to jelly
because, oh hell, she's set on her
course with no remorse.
Don't stand in my way, I've got to move fast
dropping my past and forging into a new day.
Don't hold me with your labels
Words strung like cables
trying to corner me, don't you dare order me
There's a disorder in my soul
a chaos I revel in
but I'll meet you on a level-playing field
Just give me a fighting chance
and not just a passing once-over glance
and you'll see I'm not a liar
I'm alight with desire
and ready to fill this whole fucking world with my fire.

Save My Soul

My religion is a ritual
Just you and I in
Cassock and habit
Sanctified and sacred in the eyes of God.
The words of your prayer resonate in my mouth
My rosary slipping through your nimble fingers
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned
It has been three days since my last confession.
Hail Mary Mother of God, God
god - Jesus,
Fuck!
Oh God!
My soul has been cleansed in the eyes of the Father.
Amen.

Shadow Self

Sometimes
That black shadow of despair
That woman, black as pitch
And frightful as glaring blood
Sticking her needle fingers into my
BRAIN
Gods save me
how?
When it is myself

Beating Heart

Teeth bared
Eyes shut
Fists strike
Hot flesh
Throat raw
Breath short
Blood sprays
Death takes